Two step

1. When God doesn't speak too loudly, don't listen too hard.
2. Retain the mystery of yourself.

I love Beautiful, DQ and Cherry.



Oops Q.. where are you?

I just hacked into your account to say...

20 positive things about you

1. you make people love themselves when you talk to them
2. you see right through people, and reach out to them where they need it most
3. you are endearingly confused, but you somehow put it across eloquently
4. you like your food
5. you can be frivolous
6. your passion is enough to keep many going
7. you don't seem to know how well you write
8. you have NO clue how much you've touched me with your life
9. your christianity is God-centered just as it is focused on understanding and loving humanity
10. you see the humour in things
11. you genuinely care
12. you have tremendous faith
13. your life is a testament of God's generosity, patience and unconditional love
14. you can be bloody smart without scaring me one bit
15. you struggle for your art
16. you know instinctively the things that frustrate many others
17. you are one talented chick
18. you are so strong
19. you LISTEN
20. you appreciate life and your passion for it shines

~Mrs Brett Anderson

How do 4 girls go though 30 rolls of toilet paper a month?

Betty Davis Eyes

Expose me, please. To myself.
I just really need to know.

God, be the center.

"Thou my great Father and I thy true son,
Thou in me dwelling, and I, with thee one."

I boarded the plane.

I'm looking, I'm searching, I'm seeking.
Making independent decisions, based on my relationship with God and not just with my religion or my society. Finding a balance between intellect and heart, holiness and humanity. Living based not just on what I have been told but on who I am.

I'm looking, I'm searching, I'm seeking.
Being in touch with God also means being in touch with myself. It means being and not just doing what is right. But it also means backing intentions with actions.

I'm looking, I'm searching, I'm seeking.
It means going down on my knees in surrender. Surrendering my power and allowing myself for once to be swept away. Understand that His grace exists along side His holiness. And He is love. Finding Peace.

I'm looking, I'm searching, I'm seeking.
... don't let me lose myself.

"But do I really feel the way I feel?"

Walking in Memphis ~ Marc Cohn

Boogie

• It's amazing how living circumstances changes things.
• I need to understand the shame that renders me a christian.
• No power, no pride. All Him.
• I am sickly insecure.

And when I go there...

"I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside
I want to reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name"

A lot of things work like Pandora's box. It's a theme that runs throughout human history, within our individual lives. 'The story of one man is the story of humanity' says Coelho. Pandora is me, and I've nothing to say for it. Still in the process of building and burning, I shift into a new mode of existance, one that challenges and contradicts but with refreshing truth. What else is there to be done since it's been opened? Sit back and enjoy the ride.

"It's all I can do"

Where the streets have no name ~ U2

I am starting to become free from my crippling deconstructive nature. The chains are loosening, tide is waning. Oh, lookie here, a trickle of emotion. An expression of trust. Good dinner and conversation.

Waddaya know?
I might just be human after all.

Imagine

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
~ Jeremiah 17:9

Don't look at me!

Who would have thought?

That's my primary problem. In thinking so much, I really miss out on the important things. I think God has been bringing this problem into the forefront of my consciousness. Knowledge and understanding should never be my idol, but really, my tool. As today's sermon suggested, the objectivity that results from my exessive post-modernist deliberations might well be stifling my ability to live rather then intensifying it, as it was initially meant to do.

I am not secular. I am not dead. Live and let live, abundently and joyfully.

"The Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being" ~ Genesis 2:7

Let me re-learn what it means to be human