Thursday, May 29, 2003

Ok my perm collasped on me.
My hair is way too stubborn to have anything done to it,
Maybe that speaks of my character as well.

Wednesday, May 28, 2003

I'm perming my hair tomorrow.
Wish me luck.

At some place called "Seah something"
Didn't even get the name right.

Dinner was great.
Something I really looked forward too, and really savoured.
From
The CG to
the Youth to
the worship thing to
Past relationships to
Canada to
the Press to
Friendship to
Service to
me to
You...

...made me see so much more. Challenged what I held firm. Gave me a new perspective, one that has been carefully groomed from 7 years more. Engaged me, made me feel comfortable and engaging, worth something. Refreshed me mentally away from what I have been resting in for the past 3 years.

The funny thing about being uninvolved is that you see a lot. But it doesn't help you grow

*stumped*

Yes you're right.
Last night was a snapshot of what I should let myself have - many times over, in many different ways.
Last night, a little hole in me was filled.

Though I think you did more for me then I did for you.

Perhaps you would have no idea.

Thrid place, Sixth Storey
How would a christian theatre group be different from others?
Well Q, I think I'm going to find out soon. And I think I like it.
Engage me,
Challenge me,
Allow me to give.
Please.

Monday, May 26, 2003

I'm Sorry.

I'm sorry. I guess you're right.
I should have spoken first to you then to my tempestous rage.
Who's to say that he'd listen? or entertain you? You know that he's just likely to flyishly brush you off.
I know.
But it doesn't matter the disposition. Fact is, I didn't. My portion of decency left bereft.

I'm sorry, I guess I've always had immense respect for your ability as a leader that comes with higher expectations and a harder hit for me when things don't go as I am led to believe.
I'm sorry, I guess I've undersestimated your capacity as a person.

I've been beside myself with anger for the past 3 weeks.
Why didn't you tell me?

My self-rightousness kicked me in the face.
I think I needed this.

I'm sorry.
But in some way, I believe that we both shoulder the blame.

I'm sorry.
But I do not regret this.
...sure

Of course it's alright. Am I meant to demand otherwise?

Sometimes, I wish we could do away with courtesy.
It might help a bit with honesty.

Then again Hannah, you should know better then to trust your fantasies.

Sunday, May 25, 2003



Sue me.

I'm so angry.
I haven't been this frustrated and incredulous in my life.
I'd lose sleep if not for the medication.
How the hell did it end up this way?

It was just a bloody schedule

I cannot speak of it without burning.

You
Me
Your brother
Them

Dammit.

Friday, May 23, 2003

One bitten twice shy

Obviously doesn't apply to you.
But we all have something to learn.
Although, sometimes, I think I learn to punish. I'm painfully histronical.

Though as usual I biteth the hand that doeth my blog.

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

Goddess of Wind
Goddess of Wind, calm and cool and under control.
You don't like getting personal with too many
people.


What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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I realise. I don't really have friends

*muses*

Thursday, May 15, 2003

Stright of to slate of a 14-year-old

If God would cry
When someone good on Earth dies
He would seldom weep

~Jiajia

Well now, let's not go into the theology of it all but the psychology.

Wednesday, May 14, 2003

Live simply that others can simply live

I used to be unhappy with people who didn't understand the value of money.
Then again, the value of money differs from person to person. we can't be prescriptive

If everyone decided that they needed the barest necessities to survive, we wouldn't get far would we.
No need for great technological advancements,
We're all pretty well off without the wheel anyway.

So without the rich, the wealthy, the powerful.
The desensitized fools who demand at at the pain of others,
We may not be all that well off.

Point being?
Materialism is underrated



Thank you for that walk by the sea. It made me realise how domesitc you are to me, and how beautiful such simplicity can be.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Miss?eve

I'm in love.

6 girls, one apartment, giddy with rocking cresents and black moons and cow and co.

We walked away reverently and stared into the patterned mirror

[twack!] we are 'Miss?eve'

Big heavy weight.
I think it was anticipation, excitment, fear and exhileration.
I hope we know what we're getting into.
I hope we can handle the changes.

I Should have realised something was wrong when he said, "Hi I am Godot, I will be your waiter, I will be back shortly to take your order
life.

FYI

It's the day before the 20th.
On the bed, cool evening sounds.
Cacophany to me.
Tears like mist, barely there but all around.
Unfathomable pain, a sense of the inevitable.
This is like some from of sick surgery. Where some part of this sacred anatomy is wrenched away and separated, but only for a slip in time.
Necessity.
Postive step.
Good.

Only there's no sense of that.
Risk of paralysis, death and more.

I don't know how we'll get through