I have been living under the illusion that I ever had a choice.

What now?

Hannah: I'm not a happy camper.

Elizabeth: A Happy Camper Hannah? God, that was SO WHITE.

The day is beautiful. There is beauty everywhere. In blood and in water. Drink deeply.

Hannah, you know that I do not judge. You know that I do not judge you based on your actions. And whatever you decide to do, everything will be alright.

~Christian, before giving me a big hug

I love swimming. I'm not good at it, but I work it. I float and fight against the enemy who is also my friend. And she baptizes, cleanses and purifies until there is only me and her. And she consumes, loves me and touches me all over and I cannot escape. All that is left is the silence of the blue and my thoughts - the mermaids that shoot ahead, leaving only a stream of bubbles that evade my grasp.

Be free, and I will follow.

Know me, love me.

... that which I do not deserve.

I have a particular understanding of being victim and of being vicitimized. Like too many other Aboriginal people, I have been a victim. I was a victim of child sexual abuse, or a battering relationship, or rape. In the First Nation's women's community, that does not make me exceptional. I can tell you the name of only one Aboriginal woman in this country who I know for sure has not survived incest, child sexual abuse, rape or battering. it is worse than that, because most of us do not survive just one single incident of bause or violence. Our lives are about the experience of violence from birth to death, be it overt physical violence or psychological and emotional violence.

~Patricia Monture :: Standing Against Canadian Law

These be the things that still make me cry.

And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist

And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is

It was so simple in the moonlight now it's so complicated
It was so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...

Lua :: Bright Eyes

Overheard on MSN

i was thinking

whoever you end up with

will be a very fortunate person

when things are right

~ GY Chua.

Haha you're secretly loving the drama.

~ MRH Westby.

Sometimes, like today, I get the feeling that everything I had ever known or thought about, was pointing to this one moment. It is as if life were gathering the folds of her skirt into a single bunch in the fist of her elegant hand. That's where I'm at right now.