Thursday, April 17, 2003

I'm starting to dislike blogging. I don't have anything to say that's worth putting into words

Will wait.

I should flog myself. It is the lenten isn't it?

Those who can, Teach

I realise I've lost my sensitivty as a teacher.

9/10 doesn't mean crap to me.
But it crushes the student doesn't it?
Oh well, I'm on the otherside of the coin.

The thing about you is that you try to do your best in whatever you do.
In respose to my panic attacks and stress over school.
I dream of classrooms of students, laughing, playing... being beautiful.
Before i drop off, i sometimes jolt awake in fear. "Have I planned my lesson?!"

Well, unneccessary.
But I can't help it. I only want the best for them.
I want them to have what I had.

And it is strange that I am so.
I always thought that I hated kids, that I would never have the patience to TEACH.
Well now.
Just goes to show how easily influenced I am and how readliy i take on other's views and personalites.

Soul searching isn't over yet.