I have celebrated my life over the past month. But I am now mourning for others.

Be strong.

I am so grateful for the different people in this world. If we were all the same, who would laugh at us and make fun of our idiosyncrasies?

The sun sets it's all it should be, a quiet evening home.
The sun sets it's all it should be, my heart is harder then stone.
Don't make it all a waste and save a life or two.
The sun sets and it's all gone, please rain on tomorrow's fire




Tomorrow there will be fire, and we'll fight this fire forever.
We may cry, now and then the heat will dry our tears
It won't leave even for a moment.

All we have is here and now, not in yesterday
All we really need is one another.

This Fire ~ Daniel Lim

Tomorrow is an important day, even though I'm not partaking of it in the usual way.

He loves you yeah yeah yeah!

I know Hannah. Of course I know. Everyone knows. The blind man the corner knows.
~ Jin, over our Crepe breakfast.

I am giving thanks, this thanksgiving, for having three turkey dinner invites, a crepe breakfast and all of you.

I wanna go where the mountains are high enough to echo my song
I wanna go where the rivers run deep enough to drown my shame
I wanna go where the stars shine bright enough to show me the way
And I wanna go where the wind calls my name
The wind is calling India, India, India
~ India Arie

In the morning I awoke with a start. It was a nightmare, albeit at 10 am. I dreamt that I had bed bugs in my bed - huge ones. I tossed around for a bit to regain my composure, settling down only after convincing myself that no, I didn't need to tell Joy that we needed to get exterminators in and that I needn't bag all my possessions - again.

I turned to my window to watch the sunrise behind the north shore mountains, laced in mist and the orange glow. My bed is new, cosy and warm, with sheets that have been mine for 5 years. I am cradled. I was going to be late for breakfast - crepes, coffee and fruit. I continued to watch the mountians and started to wonder if I was happier here then in Singapore. Then it dawned on me that home was shifting. I wasn't sad, but rather filled with wonder - that Singapore is no less home to me as Vancouver enlarged itself in my heart. Am I growing bigger on the inside? I felt little heart tentacles stretch out for within my chest, as if to grab hold of the essense of my relationships here in Canada. A part of me.

Jin calls. It's 10.15, and I am already loving the day.

I get ridiculously emotional!

rawr.