Thursday, July 01, 2004



I'm just really tired right now.
And when I'm tired, i have this awful way of tearing down everything that stands around me, even myself. So i only see claw-marks everywhere. And blood.

Nevermind the rest of the world, that's the least of your worries.
Get a load of what's in the mirror baby.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

definAtely so.

Things are different and things are better.

I went to a theatre meeting today. It was good being back in Singapore with all fringe and wafflily stuff. Again, i felt on par with everyone else. It was hard in Canada, being the only Asian in an all-white cast, doing a play that has absolutely no connection with your culture. Some things haven't changed. I know my accent annoys the hell out of everyone. I'm sorry. It annoys me too.

But anyhow, I am starting to agree with the concept of "Beauty Night" in Canada. That from an external transformation can trigger off an internal change. I'm not saying that superficiality ought to be the new black, it's just that a change in perception can bring about a lot of things.

Still. It's all about perception.

I don't know where i'm going with all this.
I think i try too hard.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Hello World.

I'm a healer. And this is all too much.
I'm not exactly sure how to balance my worlds.

"Ours is a high and lonely destiny"
CS Lewis ~ The Magician and His Nephew

Always from a distance, always from the outside.

Keep me up.