Friday, July 17, 2009

I am ashamed, but grateful, that when wisdom did not restrain me, fear did. I am learning to listen to the former.

It is empowering to see that meaning lies in our capacity to construct it, and not in any intrinsic valuation of the thing itself. The latter is deception.

Is this the best you can do? I asked God one day. He said: No, it's up to you. I rest my happy happy case.

I can't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place. Ahhh... the brother I thank God I don't have.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

If there's one thing I enjoy completely, it's losing myself in music.
The mornings here are beautiful. I enjoy watching the sun filter through the dense clouds, washing dew-drenched leaves with an orange shower that drizzles in time with the songs of the birds. Then there are the crowded train rides to work that, while stuffy, take me off the ground. Sometimes, the train zips by alongside a bird in mid-flight, and I can see them suspended in air, arching out their wings as they are lifted by the breeze, silent, if not for the rush-hour traffic. But the best part is how I find myself at eye-level with the flaming flowers that garnish the tree-tops or lush green carpetry of the tropical rainforest.

It is morning. And I still fucking hate you.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

[Scene: A quaint birthday gathering at work with two tables set out with cake, cheese, fruit and crackers. Diplomats, programme directors and administrators milling around. Hannah finds herself in conversation with 2 foreign diplomats and someone from the MFA]

MFA: So, Hannah, are you enjoying your internship here?
Hannah: Yeah! I'm really enjoying myself, it's great!
MFA: That's good to hear, what about it do you enjoy?
Hannah: This is the first place that I've worked at where people actually leave at 5.30pm!

It's gonna be a while before someone hires me into their diplomatic service.


In other words:

That was... that's just... he has absolutely no finesse.

Alternative points of view are always appreciated. :)
What was it that Ivan was saying again? Flanked by grey-white paintings in the pristine elegance that is the SAM, amidst the adorable toddlers that tugged at my heartstrings, he said: In the game of chess, you sometimes need to lose first to control your opponents moves. Ahhhh... the night festival, art, music, juice, trinkets, lights and sounds, and all this folding in on me telling me things I had forgotten.
This is me, totally.