Thursday, May 27, 2010

I am such a cuddle-fiend. Where is the boyfriend when you need him?
yay thank you god for making my life perfect!
Drama Mama

And all I want right now is a foot massage and a cuddle or two.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Would I be angry if this fell through? I guess not. But please dear God, don't let them retract this offer now!

[Edit: 23:47]
Uncertainty is UBER tiring.
That is why faith gives us peace.
abrasive flakes.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I am so so happy!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Facebook sometimes brings you face to face with the odd unsolicited stroll down memory lane. "Memory", perhaps, isn't the right word when you observe images of the present that you have no part of, that you have never lived. But somehow, they still succeed in invoking yesterday's ghost, which has the nasty habit of settling somewhere between my lungs and judging me. Unintentional memento mori conjuring the what-ifs, the what-was and (most poignantly) the whys. At what point did I leave and cease to be here/there? My 14-year-old self looks up and forward onto a different path and grafts herself onto the screen: a wedding photo here, a group shot there... She looks back at me now, is startled, and as most 14-year-olds, she judges me for what I've become.

No she can't understand, and neither can I. I guess I envy a sense of perceived security i see in what I  left behind/was taken from me. But I mostly don't understand why I still give a damn. 
I don't remember when I started to love durian. But boy is it good!
You know it's Singapore when

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea, Swimming through sick lullabies, Choking on her CCB, But it's just the price I pay, Destiny is calling me, Open up my eager eyes, Cause I'm Mr Brightside

10 years later, it is wonderful to sit and laugh and be happy for each other. The lack of anger, care and stress are symptoms of deep healing. But more importantly, is a sense of clarity of what is required next and the security in knowing that even if it all falls flat, I'm going to be ok.