I told SL that I was perhaps afraid of what comes next as I hadn't really conquered much of life yet. And then I stopped myself and remembered all that has happened in the last year and how well I have healed. "Surprisingly few scars" as JP once said. I don't really think about all that has happened, but I will raise it to myself from time to time as a reminder of how effective I can be in getting through life. At least, till I find a job. :) 

I also realise that just going through a difficult time doesn't automatically translate to victory and conquering it.


And in pictures:

 

I am very content. :)

Last night, I came home to Alex, my brother's new hamster.

Tres adorable! I want to cuddle!

You sound distraught...

~Bogge

It's nice to know who you can count on!

I asked my question carefully. It could not be something that I was too scared to know the truth of, or that might be affected by the answer. I would not ask about JP, or about anything concrete that might shake my trust in what I'm doing. I'm odd like that. I generally never consent to having my future read, not really out of religious reasons but more because I know that the answer will sway my confidence and that is not something I can afford. Besides, I am free from such stuff.

She pulls out three cards and over dinner gives me a pretty accurate description of my situation. JP's next to me chatting with someone about a conference in Japan, I guess it's not going to get any easier. But that's ok.