Put simply, persons who are attracted to the pastoral ministry are often people who have a need 'to help people.' They like to be liked and need to be needed. Their personal needs become the basis for their ministry--and also their greatest problem.
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Walking with Elim to One More Sushi, I asked her about her thoughts on focusing on what one is good at VS, toning down positive traits to nurture weaker ones.
I think that I really am not naturally good at anything in particular. I might do reasonably well in a lot of things, but that still leaves me a master of none. And the little that I have gained fluency in is a result of deep focus and deliberate nuturing.
How dare I leave these strengths behind and gamble on my weaknesses?
Only in the context of Godly grace and only with the understanding of my finiteness can I accept the fact that my greatest strengths invariably translate into my greatest weaknesses and needs. And were I to stand alone humanly. I would fall.
Should I dare leave these strengths behind and gamble on my weaknesses?
My strengths are a result of specialization, of deep focus and deliberate nurturing. A very, progressive, positivistic, modern, individualistic, capitalist notion. Where is God in all this? Does he want me to be good in some areas and to keep persuing my strengths?
Will that lead to engorged weaknesses?
Perhaps then, I shouldn't look to being the best that I can be, but the most.
Instead of being amazing at an individual trait, I should seek to be a wellrounded holistic person, and let my not-so-amazing-individual-traits, live together in a community of the self.
Will that not deny the true nature of my being and identity?
Will it? Nurturing a weakness, doesn't mean being who you're not, but being more of who you are.
I am not many things, but I am also many things. And in the many that I am, I am weak in some. and in the few that I am strong in, I may specialize in one. Then that will start to consume me. My identity and my being. And then I will cease to exist, and be a mere reflection of that one thing.
So to kill my babies, to suffocate my strengths and to tend to the frail doesn't mean trying to grow fruit off the wrong tree, but rather to make all native fruit grow. Together.
Lord, give me the courage to lay my strengths down, to become like a child in capability, sufficiency and value. That in running against the wisdom of the world, I will find the foolishness God.