Saturday, July 09, 2005

Your ambition.

Over BBQ and QE walks I thought about where I was going and who I was becoming and what I wanted to be. I figured that maybe my whole get-up as a major thought-processing-machine and concept-generator was becoming passe. As usual I confuse the wine and the wine-skins and realise that I've missed the whole point.

I'm not trying to give my life meaning

So I am going to strip it down to the bare bones. Just raw flesh, sinews and You making me. I want to be small, I want to suffer for the prize to be earned, I want to be sharp, lean and sleek. And if the regimental mind is getting in the way, I'll give that up.

by demeaning you

So, I'm going to give up this whole Fi-Lo-So Cheemological outfit and concentrate on reality. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. And at the end of the hairy day we are left with the thinnest threads of gold, the relationships that should've been worked on, the people restored and the lives met.

and I would like to state for the record

So call me guys, if I am absorbed in my mind, in my papers, in my books and in my concepts. Flag me when I shuffle my identity unhealthily and cop out, and most of all, when I stop relating and being real.

I did everything that I could do

So here's to a good year of thinking and discovering and now I will do everything in my power to discard what no longer fits.

I'm not saying that I'm a saint
I just don't want to live that way

Meet me.

Indeed as someone told me, the best time to rest is inbetween countries. When you first touch down and settle in, nothing to do. no one to see, just you and yourself.

So I'm sort of resting, except now I'm about to pop over and visit a friend, then hop into another friend's car and head over to a BBQ. I just came back from lunch with another friend, we went to the same place where i had lunch with another friend yesterday. And the day before that i had dinner and attempted a movie with another friend whom I was reunited with during the bible study I went to the day before the day before, which was the day after i touched down.

And on monday itself, I climbed in through a window and hung out with Seth.
Tomorrow I gym with Elim.
Sunday I hang with Dave.

Monday I go to school.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

I'm back. Attempting to be normal. Grateful for the Navs. Having food and unpacking. and just freaking out.

Becuase I am.

Hello Hannah

Sunday, July 03, 2005

I'm on my way back to Canada.
I am scared.
People people!

Read my history!

I have grown.