Friday, November 28, 2003

I'm burning out.

. . .

Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf?~ Edward Albee

I am george... I am.

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Love comes in many shapes and sizes.
In a bottle of Kwan Loong medicated oil, a photo, a poke or tickle.
A word, a smile, a gesture.
Getting hot chocolate, boiling water, sharing mp3s
A message, a joke, a tease,
Editing an essay, Foosball and pool, talking till 2 am...

The question is, where's the love being directed to?
Others or yourself?

Thank you God.

And yes, I do miss you, now that I'm out here searching for myself.

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

It's the last week for term. I've got an essay on Rousseau to tackle.
I can't get started.
I'm in an academic limbo.

Standing still wile the world sails by.
The Arts One Lecture clock. always at 10:10

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

You know I'm bound...
For freedom

You were right about this being a worship song.

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
For your selflessness my admiration
For everything you've done you know I'm bound
I'm bound to thank you for it

And I never could have come this far without you
For everything you've done, you know I'm bound
I'm bound to thank you for it

I want to thank you for so many gifts you gave
The love, the tenderness, I wanna thank you
I want to thank you for your generosity, the love
And the honesty that you gave me
I want to thank you show my gratitude
My love, and my respect for you,
I want to thank you

Kind and Generous ~ Natalie Merchant

Being away isn't as bad as they make it out to be. It's not like I've undergone some drastic change that marrs me beyond recognition. I think if anything, this has solidified me, put me together. It's funny cos on the outside I think I'm falling apart but what's happening inside is so amazing.

And it's not like I've forgotten myself, or the people back home. I'm not there experiencing your life with you step by step. But i'm still Hannah and you're still you. Kapish.

I'll be home soon. With something new and something old.

Monday, November 24, 2003

Daniel came for a visit. wow.
You learn something new everyday.

Bleed me dry

Again and again and again.
When will I learn?

Shu says I shouldn't bash myself up too much. yeah i guess so. I'm only human as well.

I think though, that I'm my own little delusioned way, I am pretty much self-absorbed myself. We all are. We just don't see beyond ourselves to reality.

Sensitivty is bad for your health.
It makes you so ineffective.

.. and is that all you can do? all that you can say for yourself?

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Remind me never to touch alcohol again.
Thanks JB and Adrian for braving the cold to help us back.
Thank you God that there was no one at the party.

Of Foosh and Fun

You nailed it tHi.
And I love you all.

Too much I think, and with too much of my inner clown.

"Look deep inside and find your inner clown: your through-line in life, your motivation in living..."