Saturday, November 07, 2009

Every morning is a breath of fresh air with the realization that at once, it is all about, while having nothing to do with, me.

I have reached the nirvana of identity politics.

Friday, November 06, 2009

In retrospect, fear is a gift too. Use it wisely and be grateful for its time as a friend.
Today is give-a-total-stranger-a-compliment day, in a bid to re-learn the giving of myself freely without expectation or fear of hurt. Really, there's no need to be so selfish with my love.

On a separate note, I am learning that the last thing I should fear is myself. If I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am going to roll with it.

Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.
~ Dorothy Thompson.

Thursday, November 05, 2009

This is why I love my legal education:

The MEATLOAF test.

Because I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR LOVE, BUT I WON'T DO THAT which does not fulfill the following criteria.

1. Measure taken must be invited by the other party (Consent)
2. Measure taken must be reciprocated (Consideration)
3. Measure taken must be reasonable and proportionate to the expected outcome (Balancing test)

There is a context to this I swear.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Do you see love waiting under the wizened boughs?
Patient and transparent as the sky is, out on the plains.
Do not be deceived by her gentle face, for her hands are pierced with battle.

And Her final cry will carry me through the seasons.

~redeemed since 23/3/09
Today, we sat on the grassy patch and argued about whether or not the grass was real or plastic. We pulled bits out of the earth and, in front of the other passers-by, chewed on them to determine if it tasted of plastic or plant.

Like cows.


Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Note to self: Breathe. Be reasonable. And never over-react or over-compensate.

I am learning to let it all wash over me, learning not to react because reactions are always generally unfair and unreasonable. Similarly, there is always the advantage of being the first mover.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Good Lord, I just woke up and am again reminded about how giddy the nights can be.

I guess the love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist.
You're so very powerful

Simply put: Loving completely entails letting go. To possess, and to be possessed, while being completely free. It is here where fragility and strength come together as two faces of the same coin.

And while brushing my teeth, I felt a little pleased at the idea that I was starting to formulate decisions and processes that I am comfortable with. It's like a breath of fresh air after the anxiety lifts. As I told my brother, you have to follow your gut feeling, because if you don't, you'd never be fully confident of what you're doing. And confidence is half the battle. Even if it takes time to get to the point where you know for certain where you stand, when you're finally right enough to lift your feet to dance, it will be in time with the music. And that is all anyone can ever ask for.

Having figured out then where I need to be, I just need to figure out what I need to do to get there. Having uncovered direction, I can focus on perseverance with the full weight of my world behind it.