Friday, August 08, 2003

It's all about the Human heart.

My opinions are valid.
What I do is theoratically correct.
What I say is sensible and reasonable.

But everything unacceptable.

Because it dose not come from a heart of Love.
So everything is void.
All the validity, reasoning and sensibility crumble because I have missed the point
Without love there is nothing.

It's all about the human condition.

On a lighter note...
... thank God for coffee!

Thursday, August 07, 2003

I saw that...
Recognised that look...
... chill, I understand.

God's hand is unmistakeable.
Everything Everything Everything falls into place.
Even when you didn't know that they were out of kilter.

God is an awesome God.

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

Gearing up

3 singaporeans. A video cam. Newton circus. Gelares.
Lifelines for the next 4 months or so.

I'm eternally grateful for what seems to be a willful, honest, openness.

Talk to each other,
Share with each other,
Tolerate each other...
Everything in the name of necessity - that which makes the world go round.

And we'll all hold our breaths for this short phase.

I'd like to stay with a guy and a girl

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Today is: reveal-all-my-weaknesses day

Weakness One
12 noon: Lower pierce resovouir - outside Tomako Restraunt
Damn thing's closed. Closed every first Monday of the month.
Probability of being in that situation: 0.03
I was in that situation.
I threw a tantrum.

A few buttons were pressed.
More Unreasonable.
More self-indulgent.
More childish.

It will happen again and again and again. The circumstances will keep haunting till something is learnt.
Of course, this test was failed and another will be presented soon...

Don't ever throw tantrums

Weakness two.
3 pm: YMCA. Members lounge
Prayer meeting started.
I've forgotten how to pray.

But the peace the transcends all understanding still, mercifully, was bestowed upon me.


Weakness three
3 pm: YMCA. Members lounge
During the prayer meeting.
A prayer for me.
Nailed it.

I need the fruits of the Spirit.
Scary. The symptoms.

Weakness four.
6.18 pm: On bus 167 - in the heart of town
On the way home, when I should've been at Spirit Wind.
I promised.
way to go on your promise

Never promise 2 different things to 2 different parties when the they are mutually exclusive.

Galations 5:22-23
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such there is no law.

Sunday, August 03, 2003

Alright. I know.

*takes deep breath*
Alright, I'll be off in less then a month.
I'm not the least bit prepared.
I have so many things to do
So little time to collect my thoughts.

I'm exhausted right now.
Didn't get enough sleep even though I didn't pubbing last night.

Glad I didn't.
I've lost interest in the activity really.
Alcohol, cigarette smoke, lack-of-sleep...
Can't even hear yourself think over the music.
I think Dennis, I'll be pretty much ok in Canada.
While the rest of the Uni is off at The Pit,
I'll be in my room, chilling with hot cocoa and a good book, being happy and naturally me.

It's only interesting to you now because it's new to you. The novelty would fade soon...
And Daryl was right.
Sunday morning wisdom, though not well received by a weary alcohol-tampered mind.


I'm miles from being prepared. where do i start?