I need sponsors for the Navigators work day.
I need 200 dollars, but i'm scared stiff at the prospect of asking people to donate.
I need love.
I need faith.
I need action.
Gah.
Covenent House
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
and me
Falling in love with a flawless shooting star, sailing across the sun, dancing along the light of day, being swept away by the wind, awed by venus...
holds no weight here in the atmosphere.
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . .
No, i didn't miss you while i was looking for myself down here,
I missed me.
It isn't easy undoing 5 years of habit.
Falling in love with a flawless shooting star, sailing across the sun, dancing along the light of day, being swept away by the wind, awed by venus...
holds no weight here in the atmosphere.
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . .
No, i didn't miss you while i was looking for myself down here,
I missed me.
It isn't easy undoing 5 years of habit.
Monday, February 09, 2004
Grant me
Patience.
Strength.
Peace.
Even though... (espcially since)... I simply fail to grasp the point.
Seriously, what's the point of turning twenty?
~ Dennis
There's only so much you can gain from watching the world through the windows of a rented car.
Times like this, I wonder why didn't I just stay in safe NUS, and what's the point of getting out if I'm staying in a cradle?
Patience.
Strength.
Peace.
Even though... (espcially since)... I simply fail to grasp the point.
Seriously, what's the point of turning twenty?
~ Dennis
There's only so much you can gain from watching the world through the windows of a rented car.
Times like this, I wonder why didn't I just stay in safe NUS, and what's the point of getting out if I'm staying in a cradle?
Sunday, February 08, 2004
In all seriousness
Hi. meet Jesus.
The answer to all your insecurites, restlessness and discontentment.
For the past few days i've been depressed, a bit off balance and discontented.
I've been overwhelmed by how wonderful, amazing and beautiful people are and well, misplaced my center.
Because of this... um... I start desiring to give myself and to just delve in fellowship.
Then i start grappling for acceptance and then i start placing my worth in that...
Then i lose myself, slip fall die.
Gah... it's a slow climb to the top.
hallmark moment
Hi. meet Jesus.
The answer to all your insecurites, restlessness and discontentment.
For the past few days i've been depressed, a bit off balance and discontented.
I've been overwhelmed by how wonderful, amazing and beautiful people are and well, misplaced my center.
Because of this... um... I start desiring to give myself and to just delve in fellowship.
Then i start grappling for acceptance and then i start placing my worth in that...
Then i lose myself, slip fall die.
Gah... it's a slow climb to the top.
hallmark moment
Saturday, February 07, 2004
I want to cry for beauty. You're all so so beautiful.
And that makes me want to fling myself into all that.
Losing and slipping.
I just realised that when I heal, love and engage, I ultimately give.
I give and i desire to give so much more, more me.
Just don't break me... I've never been so vulnerable before.
Baby take off your cool, I wanna know you.
It's a whole new world out there
And that makes me want to fling myself into all that.
Losing and slipping.
I just realised that when I heal, love and engage, I ultimately give.
I give and i desire to give so much more, more me.
Just don't break me... I've never been so vulnerable before.
Baby take off your cool, I wanna know you.
It's a whole new world out there
Friday, February 06, 2004
Beauty so unavoidable...
...everywhere you look, it's there.
I never fail to be overwhelmed by the beauty and magnitude of the individual.
"Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these"
~Matthew 6:29
No. The greatest beauty that ever exists, is captured within the temporal body of each and every individual.
So much to learn,
So much to love,
So much to live,
So much to be.
I'm surprised I haven't burst yet.
...everywhere you look, it's there.
I never fail to be overwhelmed by the beauty and magnitude of the individual.
"Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these"
~Matthew 6:29
No. The greatest beauty that ever exists, is captured within the temporal body of each and every individual.
So much to learn,
So much to love,
So much to live,
So much to be.
I'm surprised I haven't burst yet.
There's a great pressure here. Pushing and pressing.
I just need to know what to do with it all. and for now, it's coming from within, out to the world.
I will find you. Somehow. Know you still. Fear. Read. Pain.
and then i'll ask myself. why? in deliberate, slow italics.
I don't know why I still seek all this, or why I still linger here.
Maybe it's a price, a scar, a memento mori.
A tool.
A tool for love.
~ Hurt. (Source)
I just need to know what to do with it all. and for now, it's coming from within, out to the world.
I will find you. Somehow. Know you still. Fear. Read. Pain.
and then i'll ask myself. why? in deliberate, slow italics.
I don't know why I still seek all this, or why I still linger here.
Maybe it's a price, a scar, a memento mori.
A tool.
A tool for love.
~ Hurt. (Source)
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Honey, I love you...
...will you please please smile?
Fresh back from a Bruxy Davey talk on Making love. It was affirmative on my stand that Love is a choice, a verb.
�If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge if I have a faith that can move mountains but have not love, I am nothing�
~ 1 Corinthians 13:2
We spend our lives being permeated with notions of love; from the tender delicate love of a mother to the raging passion of an illicit love affair to the nationalistic pride in patriots have for their motherland. We can�t deny that life encompasses love or some aspects of it and 1 Corinthians here displays the extent of the role Love plays in a Christian life that without love, there can be no Christian. But the love that is spoken of in this passage isn�t quite the raging emotion that the world advocates; rather it is the conscious choice of the Christian to give his life to Christ and to choose to be patient, to be kind, to choose not to envy, to boast nor to be proud. One does not need to necessarily like a particular individual in order to Love him, �to like� would entail a personal human preference (She liked coffee and I liked tea, which is why we couldn�t agree.) whilst �Love� on the other hand means putting aside all that, and letting God reveal Himself to the world, through you.
~ UBC/U Vic Navigators Devotions, Jan 2004 Retreat.
Now we've tackled what love looks like, feels like, and how it works within human relationships.
But what IS love?
God is Love.
~1 John 4:16
Suddenly, it all makes perfect sense.
And with grace, power and vulnerablity, I can honestly say "I love you."
It's all so beautiful.
...will you please please smile?
Fresh back from a Bruxy Davey talk on Making love. It was affirmative on my stand that Love is a choice, a verb.
�If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge if I have a faith that can move mountains but have not love, I am nothing�
~ 1 Corinthians 13:2
We spend our lives being permeated with notions of love; from the tender delicate love of a mother to the raging passion of an illicit love affair to the nationalistic pride in patriots have for their motherland. We can�t deny that life encompasses love or some aspects of it and 1 Corinthians here displays the extent of the role Love plays in a Christian life that without love, there can be no Christian. But the love that is spoken of in this passage isn�t quite the raging emotion that the world advocates; rather it is the conscious choice of the Christian to give his life to Christ and to choose to be patient, to be kind, to choose not to envy, to boast nor to be proud. One does not need to necessarily like a particular individual in order to Love him, �to like� would entail a personal human preference (She liked coffee and I liked tea, which is why we couldn�t agree.) whilst �Love� on the other hand means putting aside all that, and letting God reveal Himself to the world, through you.
~ UBC/U Vic Navigators Devotions, Jan 2004 Retreat.
Now we've tackled what love looks like, feels like, and how it works within human relationships.
But what IS love?
God is Love.
~1 John 4:16
Suddenly, it all makes perfect sense.
And with grace, power and vulnerablity, I can honestly say "I love you."
It's all so beautiful.
