*deer in headlights*
But these headlights don't hurt.
Warmed with wine, I am content to sit at my cozy carrel, listening to mellow music and pondering upon the laws of evidence. It seems so idle, when I could really be saving the world, loving one heart at a time.
You tell me I'm foolish. I smile and hold your hand - I know.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
STOP IT!
~ Glappy.
I was in a bar till 2 am this morning talking with friends about the stuff that makes up our days. I don't get it anymore. We complicate things when we only really need to love. Everything was built to keep us together, so we really ought to start from that premise and work towards healthy resolutions.
Really, what needs to happen is the redemption of expression - we need to be able to tell people that we love and affirm them without the fear of sounding creepy, sparking fear or raising suspicion.
Am I just crazy?
~ Glappy.
I was in a bar till 2 am this morning talking with friends about the stuff that makes up our days. I don't get it anymore. We complicate things when we only really need to love. Everything was built to keep us together, so we really ought to start from that premise and work towards healthy resolutions.
Really, what needs to happen is the redemption of expression - we need to be able to tell people that we love and affirm them without the fear of sounding creepy, sparking fear or raising suspicion.
Am I just crazy?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
[Posted on Monday, November 18, 2002]
For the past 5 years
Edwardian style
...There is only one man in my life who has ever... made me happy. Do you know that? One!...
...who is out there somewhere in the dark... who is good to me, and whom i revile; who understand me, and whom i push off; who can make me laugh and I choke it back in my throat; who can hold me, at night, so that it's warm, and whom i will bite so there's blood; who keeps learning the games we play as quickly as i can change the rules; who can make me happy and I do not wish to be happy, and yes I do wish to be happy... sad, sad, sad.
Sad.
...whom I will not forgive for having come to rest; for having seen me and having said: yes; this will do; who has made the hideous, the hurting, the insulting mistake of loving me and must be punished for it... sad sad sad
Sad.
...who tolerates, which is intorerable; who is kind, which is cruel; who understands, which is beyond comprehension...
... sad, sad, sad.
Some day... hah! some night... some stupid liquor-ridden night... I will go too far... and I'll either break the man's back... or push him off for good... which is what i deserve
I guess I got what I deserve.
And it might not be a bad thing.
For the past 5 years
Edwardian style
...There is only one man in my life who has ever... made me happy. Do you know that? One!...
...who is out there somewhere in the dark... who is good to me, and whom i revile; who understand me, and whom i push off; who can make me laugh and I choke it back in my throat; who can hold me, at night, so that it's warm, and whom i will bite so there's blood; who keeps learning the games we play as quickly as i can change the rules; who can make me happy and I do not wish to be happy, and yes I do wish to be happy... sad, sad, sad.
Sad.
...whom I will not forgive for having come to rest; for having seen me and having said: yes; this will do; who has made the hideous, the hurting, the insulting mistake of loving me and must be punished for it... sad sad sad
Sad.
...who tolerates, which is intorerable; who is kind, which is cruel; who understands, which is beyond comprehension...
... sad, sad, sad.
Some day... hah! some night... some stupid liquor-ridden night... I will go too far... and I'll either break the man's back... or push him off for good... which is what i deserve
~ Edward Albee
I guess I got what I deserve.
And it might not be a bad thing.
