I enjoy my daily decisions.

I am ashamed, but grateful, that when wisdom did not restrain me, fear did. I am learning to listen to the former.

It is empowering to see that meaning lies in our capacity to construct it, and not in any intrinsic valuation of the thing itself. The latter is deception.

Is this the best you can do? I asked God one day. He said: No, it's up to you. I rest my happy happy case.

I can't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place. Ahhh... the brother I thank God I don't have.

If there's one thing I enjoy completely, it's losing myself in music.

The mornings here are beautiful. I enjoy watching the sun filter through the dense clouds, washing dew-drenched leaves with an orange shower that drizzles in time with the songs of the birds. Then there are the crowded train rides to work that, while stuffy, take me off the ground. Sometimes, the train zips by alongside a bird in mid-flight, and I can see them suspended in air, arching out their wings as they are lifted by the breeze, silent, if not for the rush-hour traffic. But the best part is how I find myself at eye-level with the flaming flowers that garnish the tree-tops or lush green carpetry of the tropical rainforest.

It is morning. And I still fucking hate you.

[Scene: A quaint birthday gathering at work with two tables set out with cake, cheese, fruit and crackers. Diplomats, programme directors and administrators milling around. Hannah finds herself in conversation with 2 foreign diplomats and someone from the MFA]

MFA: So, Hannah, are you enjoying your internship here?
Hannah: Yeah! I'm really enjoying myself, it's great!
MFA: That's good to hear, what about it do you enjoy?
Hannah: This is the first place that I've worked at where people actually leave at 5.30pm!

It's gonna be a while before someone hires me into their diplomatic service.

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In other words:

That was... that's just... he has absolutely no finesse.
~ ILS

Alternative points of view are always appreciated. :)

What was it that Ivan was saying again? Flanked by grey-white paintings in the pristine elegance that is the SAM, amidst the adorable toddlers that tugged at my heartstrings, he said: In the game of chess, you sometimes need to lose first to control your opponents moves. Ahhhh... the night festival, art, music, juice, trinkets, lights and sounds, and all this folding in on me telling me things I had forgotten.

This is me, totally.

I iz in ur blog, fixing all ur bannerz

- Seth (The love of Hannah's life)

Randoms:

It's perfectly fine and good to have expectations, and be upset when they have been failed. It is, however, helpful to recognize that they might have been failed through no fault of anyone. Or, at least, the extent of the disappointment doesn't measure up to the blame that should legitimately be shouldered by the one who has failed you. There is nothing quite so symetrically balanced in this world and there are gaping holes within agreements and relationships left by the sheer inadequacies of our race.

That in dealing with pain, one should resolve to do away with it, but rather, monitor how one reacts to it. Let's not fool ourselves into believing that pain can be done away with or ignored, instead, lets get to know him so we circumvent his sneaky hands.

Forget about the reasons and the treasons we are seeking. Forget about the notion that your emtions can be swept away. Intentions are not wicked, dont be tricked into thinking so. Soon we will all find our lives swept away. You seek up an emotion and our cup is overflowing. You seek up an emotion, sometimes your well is dry. You seek up a big monster for him to fight your wars for you. But when he finds his way to you, the devils not going--ha, ha.

Amen.