I'm burning out.

"Poof"
. . .
"Clink!"
Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf?~ Edward Albee

I am george... I am.

Love comes in many shapes and sizes.
In a bottle of Kwan Loong medicated oil, a photo, a poke or tickle.
A word, a smile, a gesture.
Getting hot chocolate, boiling water, sharing mp3s
A message, a joke, a tease,
Editing an essay, Foosball and pool, talking till 2 am...

The question is, where's the love being directed to?
Others or yourself?


Thank you God.

And yes, I do miss you, now that I'm out here searching for myself.

It's the last week for term. I've got an essay on Rousseau to tackle.
I can't get started.
I'm in an academic limbo.

Standing still wile the world sails by.
The Arts One Lecture clock. always at 10:10

You know I'm bound...
For freedom



You were right about this being a worship song.

You've been so kind and generous
I don't know how you keep on giving
For your kindness I'm in debt to you
For your selflessness my admiration
For everything you've done you know I'm bound
I'm bound to thank you for it

And I never could have come this far without you
For everything you've done, you know I'm bound
I'm bound to thank you for it

I want to thank you for so many gifts you gave
The love, the tenderness, I wanna thank you
I want to thank you for your generosity, the love
And the honesty that you gave me
I want to thank you show my gratitude
My love, and my respect for you,
I want to thank you
Kind and Generous ~ Natalie Merchant

Being away isn't as bad as they make it out to be. It's not like I've undergone some drastic change that marrs me beyond recognition. I think if anything, this has solidified me, put me together. It's funny cos on the outside I think I'm falling apart but what's happening inside is so amazing.

And it's not like I've forgotten myself, or the people back home. I'm not there experiencing your life with you step by step. But i'm still Hannah and you're still you. Kapish.

I'll be home soon. With something new and something old.

Daniel came for a visit. wow.
You learn something new everyday.

Bleed me dry

Again and again and again.
When will I learn?

Shu says I shouldn't bash myself up too much. yeah i guess so. I'm only human as well.

I think though, that I'm my own little delusioned way, I am pretty much self-absorbed myself. We all are. We just don't see beyond ourselves to reality.

Sensitivty is bad for your health.
It makes you so ineffective.



.. and is that all you can do? all that you can say for yourself?

Remind me never to touch alcohol again.
Thanks JB and Adrian for braving the cold to help us back.
Thank you God that there was no one at the party.

Of Foosh and Fun

You nailed it tHi.
And I love you all.

Too much I think, and with too much of my inner clown.

"Look deep inside and find your inner clown: your through-line in life, your motivation in living..."

And the cow jumped over the moon
You ought to be a bard sometimes I think,
An engineer of words.

Run run as fast as you can...
You won't believe me, I caught the JingerBread man!

And David took 5 stones
And killed Goliath with one, and no Adrian,
Goliath wasn't his father...

And I'm a happy soul tonight...

Just that sometimes I think I'm a disordered soul. Not that I'm ruled solely by appetite or spirit. I think within me all Reason, Spirit and Appetitie take turns, morphing without me knowing.

I fear though, that spirit will be my undoing


Wound 39~ Mark ryden

Cowsense

Cow: " I have the mind of a philosopher, the ambition of an engineer, and the will of a fighter."
Me: "the heart of....?"

Hmmmmmm...

Know thyself

ironic how it takes an oracle in the neither regions of Delphi to tell you what's innately personal.
Then again, subjectivity has always been a problem.
But since we're talking constructed realities here I guess the only person who really matters is... you.
And everyone who encompasses you.

I've never really dared give myself a full-fledged analysis of who I think I am.
I'm a sucker for the solid unchanging truths and personal perceptions of the self don't really fall under that category.
I think I can only look forward to what I endeavor to have:

The Mind of a Philosopher.
The Will of a Fighter.
The Soul of a Child

With the Heart of God.

And that's where I've found my reality.

Don't mess with the Cow!!!

Normal

That's what i'd like to be.

Though i know that sometimes I forget that everyone is as falliable as I am.
Even if I don't forget, I just don't remember.

Here I am
Will you send me an angel?
~ Scorpions

I don't need any more angels.
They're all here.

Stay tuned for 10 things I love about you.