"i will always love you. no matter how many years from now. there
will always be a twinge deep down for you. we made mistakes.
for which i am still sorry. like you said. "for the unchangeable.
for so much." i asked for forever. you gave it. in your own
little way. i will always remember. maybe someday we'll talk
again. as friends."

Were every hand held out to me, in mornful comfortation,
And every eye sympathetic to my selfish desertation,

even so, nothing would really change.



Everytime i think of you, i get a shock right through into a bolt of blue.
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find,
Living a life that I can't leave behind.

... even if I tried, it creeps up on me like a shadow,
aside from the claws.
Turning to confront, i end up staring at myself.

I feel fine and I feel good I'm feeling like I never should,
Whenever I get this way I just don't know what to say,
Why can't be ourselves like we were yesterday.

... I live 2 lives, (I'm good at that) a face and a heart.
They never agree.
I paint my face day by day, delicately with a trained hand.
The more superficial the better.
Stupid things don't hurt
Else the heart, constantly bleeds,
running me dry... save for... my face,
that delicate one-hair-bridge that i tread on everyday.

And yesterday...
To trade this for that,
Sometimes, I underestimate everything.

Everytime i see you falling, i get down on my knees and pray.
I don't think I'm ever going to get up... anymore.