I really should've known

Call me crazy, but there's a part of me that enjoys the aching. It isolates me and keeps me deliciously apart. It reminds me of the need and even romantism of solitude. The danger, the thrill, the risk and investment of vulnerability have never been so high. It takes my breath away and makes every encounter singularly refreshing and overwhelming, bringing my blood to life and making my flesh dance. My mind is subjugated to the sheer power of song, I find a new life and it leads me faithfully, blindly.

I'm on a journey I've never been on before.
I'm helpless.