There is something quite exciting about being taken over the edge.

Although helpful, self-reflexivity does not assist in making one a "better" person.

Learn to play by the rules and to play them well. But don't take them to seriously, and more importantly, learn to break the right rule at the right time and in the right way. While valuable in lending order to society, rules are always inadvertently constructed by another, so be careful when subscribing.

I am but I won't be. I think few people realise the power that their decisions have on the reality about them. Even more so in this (inter-)subjective world.

I've learnt (the hard way) not to fear or deny the emotions that instinctively surface at any given moment. But at the same time, not to grant them full sovereignty over any decision I make. There is a distinction between a signal and its source. One doesn't, for example, react to a fire alarm by dousing it with water.

A part of recognizing that life and reality isn't all that straight-forward and unitary, is understanding that we ourselves, as individual beings, aren't either.

So please, cut yourself some slack.

Album's out.

~ Lelove

But it is up to you to decide if you can work with that.

and suddenly, it all began to matter.

It is a new and subtle feeling to not be missing something or someone, to feel complete whole and balanced.

Things to do with my life:

1. French lessons
   
   Goal: Fluency
   Purpose: To be able to communicate with the Quebec boyfriend in his native language.
   
   
2. Chinese lessons
   
   Goal: Fluency
   
   Purpose: I am Chinese and since so much time, money and effort was spent on my learning the language 10 years ago, I'd like to make something of it. Also, I want to be able to understand Chinese law when I need to.
   
   
   
3. Dance lessons
   
   Goal: Performance
   Purpose: I've got to be able to do SOMETHING with my body, and I want to do it well.
   
   
4. Volunteer
   
   Goal: Here, and stints abroad
   
   Purpose: To give! And to enjoy myself whilst doing so. I've never been a fan of those short-term missions stints, but I think I could get into that, as long as I'm less of a bane than a boon.
   
   
5. Music
   
   Goal: Live in it
   
   Purpose: Because it really keeps me alive. Jam more, vocal lessons, listen more. More more more.