Beautiful

Ok babe, I'm not sure about the omen, but really really, try... Don't spend your life thinking about what you've done or should've done or want to have. ( this is screaming dennis ) but really, if we could only free ourselves from such unneccessary burdens, think of who we'd be!! Wow... do your best, strive.

Virgin Vodka

Ok, so technically, I'm not a virgin at vodka shots anymore. All thanks to my trusted chruch friends... I'm on about 6 shots for the next round! Just get me in a straight jacket. But it was a truely amazing time. I'm really grateful that it was you guys that i realised my low-tolerence level... and not at a club with strangers... So you laughed at me being high and Minah slutty, but you also stopped me from getting dead drunk with all the ice cubes and water. Thanks. And yes, i will not have shots unless I'm with you guys.But hell, 3 shots was FUN.

Ok was it might have been a doorway to a vice... that i can understand, But i guess i learnt so many things. I told my mum most of what happened... esp abt the drinking.. she was amused (Thank you God) And yes Daryl, I know what i want. it's just not now. Thanks for sharing the night with me... the bonding was great. And so were the revalations. Ok, so the environment was a catalyst but now more then ever i am convinced that I'm on the right path, when it comes to what i want (Yes we're talking dinner at your place Daryl). The affirmation makes things so natural and good, beautiful and peaceful. I couldn't have asked for a better relationship.

CONRAD!!!

I will miss you! Thank you for everything you've done.. get the london safe ok? thank you thank you...\

Best friend with Benefits

I'm sorry about yesterday's pisser-off session, but i hell did it for what i thought was best. It isn't something that I can help you in now, but I will try my best to keep trying to "sense your moods, cheer you up, talk it out of you, read your mind, complete your sentences." As i always have been doing, i hope. You'll get there... I have faith in you as i always have had.

I'm glad we resolved what we needed to last night.. It's not good to keep it in so i discovered... I'm very very contented now. Can't ask for a better state of single-hood or friendship.

Watch the early morning sun,
Drip like blood from the day,
See the buzy people run,
So many games to play
See the blue suburban dream,
Under the jet plane sky,
Sleep away and dream a dream
Life is just a lullaby

Oh, and everything will flow,
Oh you know everything will flow
Oh

Watch the day begin again,
Whispering into the night,
See the busy people play
Hurrying under the light,
A million cars, a million trains
Under the jet plane sky
Nothing lost and nothing gained
Life is just a lullaby

Oh and everything will flow
Oh I said everything will flow
Oh you know everything will flow
Oh
Oh and everything will flow
Oh you know everything will flow

The neon lights in the night tonight will say "everything will flow"
The stars that shine in the open sky will say "everything will flow"
The lovers kissed with an openness will say "everything will flow"
The cars parked in the hypermarket know "everything will flow''
~Suede