The highlight of my day @ 1408 hrs

I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road

we meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around disappears

just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles

let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek

I Love you... ~Mclachlan

The snake and The lamb

I cannot like myself. Oh loving is not a problem, solipsistic philosophy is my goddess. But on the rare times when i can be honestly honest, I understand the extent of my decay, my detoriation, my damage. My arrogance and malice compound to breed a monster, ugly and crude, only to be swaddled in silk sheets of teasing smiles and giggles.
I could not like myself. But today, oh today, at a 67 bus stop, amidst a gaggle of cackling children, it dawned upon me... it's never too late to learn. To love, to forgive myself and not to give in to utter desperation and disappointment of what i am now.

Patience comes from love
Love comes from God

I've gotten over a major obstacle in my life, and left a major comfort zone (which in it's own ironic way was very uncomfortably) to return to an equlibrium... of what was always meant to be. (now ain't that uncannily right?) Maybe now my spirit can recuperate and become what God has always wanted me to be, not naive (daryl and luke made a big hooha abt this one) but innocent...