*nervous laughter*

Ok ok so I got it wrong.I usually do.

Dennis was right. I have no faith humanity. Hmmmmm, what will it take for me to understand that people are not what i see them as? How will i bring myself to see and give into the love that exist in our condition. Wonder if i'll be able to see beyond the revenge, fear, resentment and selfish nature of who we are to the love, care, and gentleness. Maybe i have to eradicate all that from my life before being abled to move up onto a higher, more positive state of awareness and sensitivity. I'm so sorry for underestimating everyone... But i am beginning to see and let myself be vulnerable to the people around me. Angie, DQ, Andrea, Josh, Doc... Slowly slowly... I'll get there...

Maybe one day...
we'd gather around all in a room fasten our belts engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down rest without guilt not lie without fear disagree sans judgement

we would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and
enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and
open and reach out and speak up

we would share and listen and support and welcome be propelled by passion not
invest in outcomes we would breathe and be charmed and amused by difference
be gentle and make room for every emotion

we'd provide forums we'd all speak out we'd all be heard we'd all feel seen

we'd rise post-obstacle more defined more grateful we would heal be humbled
and be unstoppable we'd hold close and let go and know when to do which we'd
release and disarm and stand up and feel safe

this is utopia this is my utopia
this is my ideal my end in sight
utopia this is my utopia
this is my nirvana
my ultimate
~Alanis