Now the one thing I struggle with is my sense of self, rootedness and Identity.

Yes. Still.

A little bit of everything and I forget who I am. I compromise myself a lot in a desperate attempt to gain acceptance. Every now and then I get to a point where I question my identity. Do I really think this way? Would i really do that? Feel that? react that way?

Or am I this way now just because of you?

The head tells me it's all in the process, the heart says to drop dead and die.